Quarterly Review

This week we did our quarterly reviews (We were only 2 months late too. Possibly a reflection of the leadership in the company…). The way that I structured it was I came up with a Google form that everyone filled out for every other person in the company. One of the most interesting parts, for me, was having everyone rate everyone else on a scale from 1 to 5 on the values in our company. Here are the results that I got on the review:

Chris
[Integrity]
[Action]
[Bold]
[Growth]
[Community]
[Human]
Maggie
4
2
4
4
3
5
Jacob
4
5
4
5
4
4
Patrick
4
5
4
4
5
5
Kirsten
4
5
5
4
2
2
Avg
4.00
4.25
4.25
4.25
3.50
4.00
Chris
3
4
4
5
3
1
4.25
1.00
0.25
0.25
-0.75
0.50
3.00

There are several things that I like about this activity.

  1. It is always eye opening to see how you are actually being perceived by your peers.
  2. It is a real challenge to be honest with yourself and actually evaluate yourself.
  3. It’s painful to hear what you are weak in.

Honestly, I want people to be more honest. I want the negativity. I want the truth. I want to know where people think I can be better. However, I want to be surrounded by people that lift me up and support me. The one thing that I would hope above all else is that my peers do not label me as any of the things I am weak in, but I want people to feel comfortable telling me where I’m falling short. I think that we can always improve, and we can always grow. However growth doesn’t happen without pruning.

Leaders are not born. They are made.

It is important to me to have a culture in our office that people are taking each other to the next level.  Our company is going to make a lot of fantastic leaders. We are a company that encourages positivity, and brings our own energy.

When I look at the averages of all my reviews I don’t really have anything tangible to work with. I’m just above average in every category. Growth does not happen when we are comfortable. If I had a fixed mindset I would look at the average scores and pat myself on the back that I am good enough. However, I try to always have a growth mindset, and that means that I have to look deeper into those ratings. What do I need to work on? I’m not satisfied with mediocrity. I’m not satisfied with people comforting me and telling me I’m “good” or “okay” at everything. Sure, it feels nice to know that overall people think I’m a semi-decent, above average kinda guy. But, I know that I have a lot of growing to do.

In my meeting with Maggie the thing that I got the most out of was that she gave me a two in action. Now at first when I saw that my emotional reaction was “WHAT?!?! are you kidding me? look around? Can’t you see that I got where I am because of all the ‘Action’ that I have taken?”

After I had settled myself internally, and processed it a little be more, I realized that I was being presented with an opportunity for growth. So the only logically step was to find out what she had perceived about me that made her think I was a two in action. She acknowledged that I do talk about taking action a lot, and I do take bold actions a lot of the time WHEN I do act. However, she pointed out to me that I spend A LOT of my time talking and discussing what I am going to do, but I spend a fraction of my time actually doing. While it was hard for me to stomach at first, and while I thought I was a great person of action (I gave myself a 4). She presented me with real concrete constructive feedback that allowed me to step back, and see that yes, I’m doing okay, BUT I could be so much more than I am today. This little conversation opened my eyes to the fact that I have been falling so short of my true potential in the category of action.

Now wait! It’s not over yet, the ball is still in my court. What am I going to do with that information? Will I have a growth mindset and take more action, or will I choose to have a fixed mindset and focus only on what is comforting which is that I got a 4.25 on action overall, so I’m good.

I think the reason that I love growth and constructive criticism so much is because I know that in every role I have been in in life whether it was in school studying for a test, on the basketball team trying to get stronger, in a small group working on a project, or as the leader of a company trying to be better. I have only truly tapped my full potential when I was uncomfortable (and sometimes in a little bit of pain).